For those close to me it’s easy to see that I have been on a transformative path since my daughters diagnosis. It has been full of ups and downs, laughing and crying, gratitude and anger, and love. Love of others and love of self.
In order to learn to love myself, I had to dig deep. I had to overcome past hurts, guilt, and shame. I’ve worked with coaches, therapists, and confided in those I trust and love to help hold me up on days that I couldn’t hold myself up. For a solid six months, I could barely get myself out of bed in the morning. Being a morning person my whole life, this alerted me that something was really wrong.
I was told that I was depressed (I was) and that I just needed a good morning routine (whatever) and that it will “pass.” They all had good intentions, I have no doubt about that. But, the voice inside me told me that it was something more. Something was really missing from my life.
It is only today, this morning in my journaling and reflection that I could really sit and feel the difference. A lot has changed – a lot. But, the bottom line is that what has really changed is me coming into what I was created for.
I have stopped following other people’s dreams or what society says I should want or believe. I am listening to my inner voice. I am no longer silencing myself or my gifts. I have found freedom in being me.
It’s not a phase. It’s me. It’s who I am. It’s who I was called to be.
Helping others has always been my goal, but I was going about it the wrong way. I wasn’t using my gifts nor did I have control over how I could help others. I was trying to help others under someone else’s rules. In fact, what I realize now, I can’t help others if I am not my authentic self. There is only one me. There is only one you.
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